These past few months have been a whirlwind for me. I have experienced so much growth and upper limits in my own way of thinking and doing things.

I thought I knew what I wanted.

I thought it was what I wanted.

And then it happened.

I had a conversation with an old coach of mine.

We worked together a year and a half ago, and in our time working together I created the biggest and most amazing shifts I’ve ever had my entire life.

We haven’t had a session in about a year, and so I was pleasantly delighted and excited to get on the phone with her again.

She asked me a few questions and I didn’t even know where to begin.

SO much has changed.

SO much goodness to share.

But then the rest of the stuff started to come out…

What hasn’t been working.

What feels heavy.

What feels like it isn’t in alignment anymore in my life, in my business, in my mindset.

She listened, asked really powerful questions and shared her insights with me.

I don’t remember in particular what she said or how she said it… all I DO know is that it touched something really deep inside of me.

I could feel it in my chest, something was bubbling up, something wanted to come out of me and be expressed.

I felt an opening, a possibility, a knowing that a NEW WAY of being was upon me.

I left the conversation with a great sense of anticipation.

I felt like something was about to happen. Something BIG.

But I couldn’t exactly put my finger on it.

I hurriedly went to the bookstore to purchase the book she had recommended I read. While I was there, I also found a pretty new journal to write it, as I always purchase new journals when I’m embarking on a new phase of my journey…

I went home and began reading.

I couldn’t believe what started to happen next.

I started to get the urge to write, and the words began coming to me, flying out of my head and onto paper.

I could barely write fast enough!

Pages upon pages started pouring out of me onto my fresh new journal paper.

Hours went by, it was getting late and STILL I was writing.

I couldn’t believe what was coming out of me. Through me.

This download was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. It was exactly what I was looking for.

I felt a MASSIVE SHIFT within me as I was writing those words that evening.

I knew it was one of the biggest things to happen to me in years.

It’s almost as if life will never be the same again, because of what happened that day.

Everything feels much clearer to me now. I have so much insight on where I am AND where I’m going.

And there’s so much more that’s just waiting to be revealed.

I began having increasing desires to want to be alone. To get away, to clear my mind and dis-connect to deeply connected to myself and the source of my inner wisdom.

SO this past weekend I did exactly that. I employed a weekend of MASSIVE self care to get back in rhythm with myself and my body to tap into even deeper levels of insight and intuition.

What came out of this weekend was extraordinary. It’s amazing what a few days in nature, silence and extreme self care can do for the mind, body and soul.

What I’ve learned is that my desires, dreams and goals are shifting yet again. It’s HUGE and I almost can’t even believe that it’s what I want.

But it feels SOOOOO good to think about and play with the idea inside my mind.

It’s almost as if it feels too good to be true.

“You mean I can have it exactly the way I want it?”

Yes, you can.

Then, this morning it hit me.

Since returning from my trip on Sunday I’ve been hitting some massive resistance to WHAT IS, as it isn’t in alignment yet with WHAT I WANT.

It was hard to get back into the daily grind of things while this dreamy vision danced around in my head. I found it hard to concentrate, hard to see the purpose in doing what I was doing.

I was trying to identify the ‘block’ — what was it that was causing the resistance to creating it? Why did it feel so hard?

And as I was journaling this morning, something huge was revealed to me…

I wrote out in large letters in my journal…

“Am I GOOD ENOUGH to slow down and have it be EASY?”

“Is it POSSIBLE for me to actually realize this new dream, this NEW WAY of operating in the world?”

“Can I ACTUALLY do this?”

It hit me like a TON of bricks.

Here I am teaching women all over the world about feeling good enough, owning that they are worthy and deserving of having freedom and creating a life they love… and at the same time experiencing massive blocks to my own upleveling and new dreams that are on the precipice of creation.

Wow. I was shocked! I thought I was ‘over’ this, that I wouldn’t ever have stuff like this come up for me again.

And then I realized the subtle differences between the two.

Sure, I feel enough! I KNOW and believe I am good enough internally. I love myself unconditionally, wholly and know I am complete within myself.

However this felt very different… as if I wasn’t good enough to HAVE the things I want to have. To DO the things I want to do.

I know that in the wholeness of my being that I AM ENOUGH… however when it comes to the things I want to HAVE and DO… there was something there that was blocking me from realizing I am enough to have and do those things.

I felt selfish.

I felt guilty, as if it was ‘wrong’ or ‘bad’ to want this sort of thing for myself and my family.

I felt as if I had to earn it, and in that ‘earning’ implies that I could then lose it, which then created a fear of loss.

There was also a part that came up around protecting me and keeping me safe.

“What if I try this new way and I don’t like it? Or I fail at it? Or I get hurt, ridiculed, mocked or rejected in some way? What if people don’t like it?”

Bam. There you have it. All my major blocks coming up at once and it felt SO GOOD!!! Hehe 🙂

I chuckle because just externalizing it like this was such a process for me and helped me gain so much perspective on what it is that is actually happening inside.

We ALL have blocks like this.

We ALL struggle when upleveling our lives to the things we truly dream of with massive blocks of resistance, upper limits and mindset blocks.

Because truly, we are the only ones that are standing in our own way.

We are the only ones blocking our own success.

Success happens in the mind first, then the emotions and the actions come secondary as a result.

When we make a decision in our minds to have, do or be something, what happens is that EVERYTHING that is NOT in alignment with it comes up to be processed through and released.

There is no other way.

It has to come up and out.

Otherwise we stay stuck.

We can’t uplevel our lives and change major limiting behavior patterns in our life without upgrading our thinking FIRST.

The reason we haven’t gotten what we want yet is because we can’t conceptualize it in our minds yet. And as we do, the blocks and resistance to having it come up to the light to be transformed.

Just as I brought all of these blocks to the surface, I now know that they are there and that they feel very real.

I also know that when I align to my true authentic self and I see the vision for the woman I want to become, and all of the things that I want to be, do and have, that these things are just limiting beliefs and blocks to me having what I want. They are not true in the sense that they are just false perceptions.

I was believing these false perceptions because that has just been the way that I’ve been living life for so many years.

It was very unconscious the way I was thinking and doing things.

And now that everything has become clear, I get to go through the conscious re-programming process all over again.

Where I have to maintain absolute clarity and focus on what I DO want.

Keeping my awareness each and every day on my NEW beliefs, on what I DO want to create.

Because if I don’t, I know what will happen.

I will just keep repeating the same cycle over and over again.

Einstein said that the definition of insanity is doing something over and over again and expecting different results.

In order for us to get different results in our lives, in order for us to create a different outcome and experience in our lives, we have to do it in a different way.

There is no other way, other than the NEW WAY.

The NEW WAY is what you consciously choose to focus on each and every day.

You get to focus on it because that is what is in alignment for you.

It is in alignment for you because it comes to you as a vision, as a dream— and I don’t see these as just merely ‘pie-in-the-sky-wish-I-could-have-it’ type dreams… I see these as OPTIONS!

That whatever I can think of, dream of, and believe I can do, I CAN.

IF you are willing to do the work — the internal and external work to be able to get there.

You get to go through all of the emotional baggage, limiting decisions and blocks that prevent you from having what it is you want.

You get to take massive action that is in alignment with your new thought and belief patterns, to create what it is you truly want in your life.

That is the journey!

That is the fun and exciting part of it!

That is the challenge!

I saw a bumper sticker on a hippie van window this morning that said, “The Challenge Is A Part Of The Journey.”

As I have been struggling with my own inner challenges, in my mind I truly thought about punching the person who put that on their van. Kidding but not really!

The reason being is because growth is tough. It’s CHALLENGING as shit.

It’s a difficult process going through the obstacles, challenges and hardships that come along with changing your life.

I’ve been on this growth path for many years now, yet sometimes I feel like I’d rather throw the towel in and just STOP growing. Stop challenging myself to keep going.

I said to my partner last night while on FaceTime, “Why can’t I just be NORMAL? Why can’t I just be a “normal” person and work a job and come home and relax and get up and do the same thing over and over again every day?”

His answer to me was simple… “Because you’d get bored, Lauren.”

I LIVE for the struggle. I LIVE for the challenge of facing those things that are hard and scary to do.

The times in my life where things feel hard are when I’ve truly grown THE MOST.

Now that doesn’t mean that I believe that life is a struggle, because I do not. I believe that life is meant to be easy, flowing and fun. Life is meant to be enjoyed, to have deep meaning, to find your purpose and what you love and to do that, be that, and live that every day of your life.

I DO believe in facing challenges head on. I DO believe that in order for us to have a meaningful life, that we have to grow.

Like the caterpillar becomes a butterfly, there would be no beauty or transformation without the struggle.

I always say, “I am either growing and moving forward OR I’m stuck or moving backwards.” There is no other way other than growth.

Think about nature and the cycles and rhythms that reside there. Does a tree ever stop growing? Does grass cease to grow? Sure, these things grow and grow and grow until their life cycle is over to which they then die and are re-born again into the soil, into the earth, which then provides the nourishment and fertilization for something new to then be born again.
So is the same with you.

Growth is a natural part of life, but so is the destruction and the breaking down of who we thought we were in order for something new to be born again from the ashes.

Even the research backs up this belief that challenge and growth is an essential part of a fulfilling life. Psychologists Csikszentmihalyi and Larson’s groundbreaking research and work in the 80’s and 90’s helped validate his theory in the book Flow:

“The best moments usually occur when a person’s body or mind is stretched to its limits in a voluntary effort to accomplish something difficult or worthwhile.”

Cal Newport, author of the book Deep Work, goes on to say that:

“Human beings, it seems, are at their best when immersed deeply in something challenging.”

Being in a place where you are challenging yourself and pushing yourself beyond your limits is something that I have found in my own life to create high levels of satisfaction, happiness and deep fulfillment.

It fills my heart with so much joy to set a goal that is in alignment with my soul’s purpose and to have to grow and stretch myself beyond what I thought possible in order to become it.

That’s what I’m here to do.

That’s what I’ve set out to create, yet again in my life.

A new way of being, doing and having that scares the utter shit out of me.

A new way of being, doing and having my life be EXACTLY the way I want it to be.

And in that process of creating this new life for myself, I’m going to have to face the resistance.

I’m going to have to face all these limiting beliefs that I know in my HEART are NOT true, but that my conscious and unconscious still need some re-programming so that my MIND can now believe it.

It’s a process of aligning all three selves— Higher Self, Conscious Mind and Unconscious Mind.

When all three are in alignment, you can become UNSTOPPABLE.

It’s a process of listening to your true authentic desires— as a result of having a conversation with my coach, I received massive downloads from this Higher part of myself. It was providing me with new guidance and information that led to pointing my life in a whole new direction.

Then what happens is the Conscious mind takes hold of the information and says, “YES! I want this! And I can have it! That sounds good to me.”

It does what it can to orient towards this new way of life. It tries to figure it out and take the action it needs to pursue this worthwhile goal.

However, that is not the whole story. The conscious mind is only responsible for about 1% of how we operate in our life. That means that the logical, rational conscious mind THINKS it is in charge, however in reality it is not.

Our unconscious mind is responsible for 99% of how we operate. Inside our unconscious mind is our programming, our automatic habits, our deeply held and entrenched beliefs and internal representations of how we see the world. It contains all of our emotional baggage, hurts and wounds that color the lens through which we perceive the world. It affects how we do life in the long-term.

Have you ever tried to change a habit? Like start a new diet or workout routine for example? Or tried to get up earlier to take time for you? How long did that last?

That’s because your conscious mind will grab onto the idea and have you going for a few days, maybe a week or two max, but sooner than later what happens is ALL YOUR SHIT COMES UP from your unconscious mind.

Then what happens is, most people aren’t willing to deal with it. They don’t understand that in pursuit of any worthy goal or personal development process, that stuff is going to come up.

We have stories as to why we can’t have what we have, we have old fears and resentments that block us from truly seeing the opportunities and growth, and most people quit. They give up because it becomes TOO CHALLENGING.

But what if you were to change your perception on this? What if as a result of learning this new information that you were to EXPECT your stuff to come up? To embrace it and find the willingness go through the process and transformation that is REQUIRED to take your life to the next level?

Would that change your life?

You bet it would.

This is where the rubber meets the road.

This is where it takes courage, determination, and a relentless persistence to focus on what you DO want.

This is where in my own life I have to know and understand that these things WILL come up.

And I am willing to allow them to.

In fact I encourage them to!  Might as well let ALL THAT SHIT come up so that I can process through it and be done with it!  The faster the better, I always say. Why not just rip it off like a bandaid and allow the healing process to begin naturally?!

The pursuit of growth and upleveling is not an easy process, obviously. But there is only ONE reason why I keep doing it and continue to walk this journey and path of growth…

The reason is, because it is WORTH IT.

Plain and simple.

It is the most worthwhile thing I’ve ever done in my life.

And just like I ask myself the question, “Why can’t I just be “normal”?’

I remind myself often… Why would I ever WANT to be?

This is the kind of life I signed up for. The kind of life I love. The kind of life I always knew I would be living, this is what I dreamed up many years ago.

And now I am allowing myself to dream EVEN BIGGER.

SO BIG in fact that it is hitting hard on old beliefs and internal representations in my mind about how I THOUGHT life operated, and what I used to BELIEVE was possible.

All that is being challenged now.

All that needs to go!

And I understand it may take some time.

It might be a process of releasing what no longer serves me, what no longer ‘fits’ with my new mindset, what is no longer in alignment with this NEW WAY I am stepping into in my life.

OR it might just happen in a flash.

Everything can change in an instant.

When we attune our minds to the thoughts and frequencies to what we want, MAGIC and MIRACLES ensue as a result.

For me, I am willing to not take any of my old beliefs personally, and am willing to let them go in favor of NEW BELIEFS, thought patterns and structures that support the direction I want to go in.

I AM GOOD ENOUGH to have everything I want.

I AM GOOD ENOUGH to do what I want to do.

I AM WORTHY AND DESERVING of all of the goodness that life has to offer, on my terms, and in a way that feels good and in alignment for me.
I can do anything I put my mind to.

I have enough time, money and resources to create whatever I want in my life.

It is POSSIBLE if first I can dream it and am willing to do whatever it takes to get there.

I am willing to do the work. I am willing to be challenged and to challenge myself. I am willing to go through the struggle to emerge on the other side a beautiful transformed butterfly.

Like my partner also shared with me last night, it is only a process of intense pressure that coal transforms into a sparkling diamond.

So in that way, I do not expect it to be easy.

I do not expect there to not be challenges along the way.

But rather I know that it is here to mold me and to shape me into becoming the woman who has and is able to do those things that she truly wants.

That to me is the most meaningful thing in the world.

I commit myself to this new way of being, and of sharing myself and my process with you along that journey.

But only if you do one thing for me gorgeous?

Are you willing to join me?

Are you ready to up level and create massive change and transformation in your life as well?

There is only one thing I expect of you, and that is to DREAM BIG.

Ask yourself, what do I REALLY WANT in this life? What do I have a BURNING DESIRE to create and step into and become?

What do you want?

What do you really really want in this life?

Do you believe you can have it?

Because the truth is, that you can HAVE IT.

You can DO IT.

You can BECOME IT.

This is the way towards breaking FREE and creating a life you LOVE.

In light + love,

Lauren Love

P.S. If I can do it, so can you beautiful soul!! And I’d love for you to join me along that journey.